Nessie Lemordia'King

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Nessie Lemordia'King — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 17:40:00 -0000

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Nessie Lemordia'King — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 17:49:12 -0000

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Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:44:27 -0000

Updates to playlist: hype

Nessie Lemordia'King — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 13:57:06 -0000

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Sat, 23 Aug 2008 00:01:13 -0000

Truth

Nessie Lemordia'King — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:10:30 -0000

So many wanna take it
my walks' never basic
and my body is so amazing
when I take it off
I've been known to drive men crazy
Temptation;
something I'll always be.
From my eyes,
to my lips,
to tits,
to my hips,
I'm known to write story's
with my physic
n even though
they could turn out to be true
I keep my inner sexual desires on lock down
because I know
what I can do

A mystery;
something Ill remain to be
until the moment
when
he kisses me,
then
I won't be able to hold back
the passion
the lust
thats built up inside of me.

Many wonder
but few really know
of the moments
when I truly
let myself go
it becomes all fun an games
when I'm in my element
of sweat
and
heat
behind
closed
doors.

I set the rhythm
because I am the mood
although
to look at me
you'd be unsure
of the possible things
I can do.
A lot of things remain anonymous to me
but when it comes to
temptation
and pleasure
thats a whole nother side of me.

The feeling I get between my legs
when I'm at war
with
reality
and
my desires
make it all worth wild
when I catch him looking at me

I guess on the low
all I really want
is for him
to get a taste
of me.

Spoken words

Nessie Lemordia'King — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:09:52 -0000

She lives life unconsciously unaware of the broken picture
fractured smiles, tainted laughter, and brief moments where she feels whole, all disguises the true chapter.
Unspoken words, leave question marks
never to be answered.
A chapter in her life has
never been written
She avoids the big picture
Her life is incomplete
and she is unable to truly
build a relationship
she lacks coordination
She's lost, she can only go so far,
she needs guidance,
her mother has brought her this far,
but she still needs
guidance.
Her greatest fear is rejection
and her greatest weakness
is fear of rejection.
You'd think
that would be her strong point
being that everything in her life
she earned
and was never given to her
but
she still falls short
so I guess
we all have to learn
'Teach me to be strong, and able to truly love, show me the light, so I can rise above my great depression; a slave to my closed chapter im the resurrection of second guessing, but the master of my reflection...'
Alot to be spoken
she's always searching
rivers of pain
flow threw her valley
and like a pledge
infect her membranes
her white blood cells
turn scritching red
infected with horrors
and pride
She's always at war
with herself
even though
she knows of the lies.
Its not her fault
but she takes blame
willing to fix whatsz been
fucked up
She fights to change her ways
the pressure that fuels her fire
is to never
be like her father.

I will finish what I start
and when I'm wrong
I'll be a women
and never be ashamed to admit
I was wrong.
I will fight for what is right
and accept my life choices
and decisions
I will be a great mother
and friend
and always be there for my children
I will look into my son's eyes
and see a wonderful, strong man.
I will tell him of my trails and tribulations
and teach him how to be a real
man.
My daughter will be a strong women
I will teach her how to fight
discrimination,
and I will allow her to fall
and guide her
when she stands
I will give my all in every situation,
because failing to give my all is
preparing to fail.
I will never forget the ones who were there for me
and even though I will one day forgive you
ignorance is never bliss
ignorance is failing to prepare
and I don't excuse your absence
and time will never make up for itself
so even though
I find myself
sometimes looking for your face
in a crowd when I'm playing tennis
or receiving a award
or even walking down the ale,
I will always remember
that I made it
this far without you
and I will go on living
my life
and
picking up the pieces you left behind
because everyday
I grow stronger
and learn something new
something maybe you should have been here to teach me
but
I guess in the long run
I'd rather experience a failure
and learn from it
than to be told about it
and avoid it
because
assuming is making an ass out of you.
Damn
I wish you only knew...
your little girls growing up
and she has great pride
thanks to you
she's learn her strength.
you figure out what your made of
when you land on your ass
time n time again.
I keep my head up
always looking forward
can't dwell in the past
because
today's a present
something
you weren't present to receive
so I make it a priority to make it
since you made me
and left me,
and for the record
I shouldn't have to find you
cause you made me.

Untitled

Nessie Lemordia'King — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:09:11 -0000

Lost in the past
I thought I had moved on
My heart knew what my mind denied
torn between the two
my soul was lost
Such tricks played
when under the curse
you came to me when days were wrong
deceiving my mind
was just the 1st.
Left in deseat
I let you in
only to find out my heart would win
Time to choose
and be set free
I fought the battle to win the war
unwilling to surrender
was my battle cry
then came the night
when tails were told.
The truth was reveal
my mind was content
but my heart was restless
she would win!
I took control
tired of being controlled
Stuck between the two having to choose
either life or death
wanting neither
only freedom....
Lost amugst scares and wounds
I did the best thing I could do.
To choose a path Ive never walked before
to let go of everything I knew
Deciding to try something new....

"Regret may come to me when days are old,
But one thing I know
is that
the
story
still
lies
Untold."

Promise

Nessie Lemordia'King — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:08:12 -0000

Im not an angel
but I can make you smile
We all have a dark side
even though you'd never think of the things that are possible
Shes kinda like my shadow
n in the end
they always say
all you have in this would
is yourself
so when that line is crossed
n your time is over
its crazy how we look so alike
in the light
the transformation takes place
and its time to shed some light

Spotlights appear
and as we draw near
you begin to see the big picture.
she n I;
we weren't so different after all.

Outcome

Nessie Lemordia'King — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:07:25 -0000

A familiar sense of freedom took over me...

And once again I began to fall

unaware

but still

conscious

wanting to fight

but wanting to feel free...again.

Shyness

A jump of happiness

joy

everything

I knew

I felt

I was...

before.

Its never the same

Once you've seen the other side of things

Its never the same

Pure love

First love

everything you would want

everything you would love

All seems so priceless

so harmless.

But once you've been hurt

once you've felt the cold, heartless, breath taking pain,
within the night. Once you lay awake

your mind flooded with memories

times of happiness

once you watch

in instant replay

your life

your love

torn apart

once you watch

everything you knew

change into something

you never saw coming

some horrible thing

creeping

sleeping besides you late in the night

onces heartache moves in

then you begin

to see what life really is Like.

Once you've been burned.

Scorned

Changed into something new

once you've seen

felt

heard

only things that have been talked about,

Once you realize that the things you felt were never close
to hurting you

You wish

dream

of the mind frame when things like

Love

were some kind of fairy tale.

But now you know the truth.

Now you know that every love, lust, and heartache is
unquiet.
Now you know,
now you fear.
Now I 2nd guess my feelings,
now I wounder about the outcome,
instead of our relations.
Now I feel,
I'm much better off,
knowing who I am,
and being me,
then learning who you are,
and
being us.
Now I run,
never to be hurt again.
But the messed up part about that is,
in the end,
I'll end up hurting again.