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higinia

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Thu, 04 Sep 2008 14:28:48 -0000

Higinia - BlessTheFall
If you could stay here for just
a little bit, a little while, a little bit with me
you're what makes me,
and if god could keep you with me
I'd trade just about anything

You're what makes me want to change things
I would die just to live and yet we all live to die
You're what makes me want to change,
you will not die
you will not die
you will not die
you will not die

If you could stay here for just
a little bit, a little while, a little bit with me
you're what makes me,
and if god could keep you with me
I'd trade just about anything

I'd trade anything...

Take a step further back to where you belong
Take a look at your life what have you become

I never had the chance to explain myself
I never had the chance to apologize
I never had the chance to explain myself
I never had...

You will not die
You will not die
You will not die
You will not...

...Something you need to know...

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Fri, 11 Jul 2008 08:08:34 -0000

Some EMO hearts feel so lost, so sad, so incomplete....
but me? I'm not of them...because I'm totally dead!...
.....''NO HEART TO BE BROKEN''......
Thank you for killing me....

...I loved u....

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Mon, 05 May 2008 06:03:17 -0000

At the beginning we were best of friends.Everytime we spoke...
even in the depths of deppression...you made me smile...
Everytime your lips were moving and the air coming out of ur lungs fomrming into words
touched my ear drum....I could feel a heavy but warm serenity beat inside my heart...
Everytime I looked up at the sky...whishing u were here...
I smiled, waiting for you to meet me again.
Everytime I was alone, I wished that like a breeze you would come out of nowhere,
saving me from the heart stabbing loneliness...
Everytime the silence wrapped around my head, or boredom filled up inside me,
I would play the song in my head, the song... that u said reminded u of me...
...but...
...when months had passed that felt like years, you said you loved me...
but only...as your friend...
I smiled and said ok, but inside I was tearing apart...
my heart took quickly another form...
From this warm liquid something I can't explain...
to this dried up cold crisp...
I could feel this said and painful waves in my head, moving towards my eyes...
...they have now turned into this cold and lonely waterfall, inside this neverlasting winter forest...
They felt heavier and heavier, making harder to keep my head up...
Night after night, I cried and cried...
Day after day, I hided and hided...
not wanting 2 see the awful thruth blocking my way...
While I was sitting there, hiding from the world...I thought to myself...
Does anyone deserve to live?...
Is there a someone for everyone?...
Did she even know...
...how much I loved her?...
I stared at the floor wishing,
wishing that I should have opened my lips and told u the truth...
I said 2 myself...
...why...why didn't I say anything?.....why....
I took the key to my locker and held it against my wrist, moving it slowly down against my arm...
forcing it under my skinn as I bited my lip with tears in my eyes thinking...
...of what could've been....

I mad this blog 5th of may as I couldn't sleep and thought of you.....
...you know who you are...
it isn't like it really was, but it has the same feeling...

...just a thought....

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 22:21:35 -0000

..when you have no friends...

..your parents are your enemies....

..and your partner has dumped you...

..where or who do you go to?...

.....I don't know why I'm showing this but still I do......

...your so happy you have forgotten all your bad memories....

...but you also forgot me.....

...does that mean....

...that I'm a bad memory for you?....

...was everything we did....

...just a burden for you....

...a rose...

...that has withered...

...but with thorns....

...still sharp enough to cut through your finger tipps...

...did it....

...did it hurt?...

...just existing, by my side?....

....why....

...why did it hurt....

Emptycorner....

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 19:09:27 -0000

...I'm always alone and have no one to talk to....

...I feel like I'm sitting in an empty and dark corner...

...not knowing where I am or what I should do....

...I'm not sitting in the corner because I want to.....

...but because no one has helped me out....

...by time I've turned into a nobody, a nuthin....

...that's why the corner is still empty...

...it's an emptycorner...

The Devil Wears Prada - Hey John What's Your Name Again/The Gazette - Social Riot Machine

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Sat, 02 Feb 2008 14:15:07 -0000

The concept of fashion
Is the one to blame:
Painting the portrait of
Conviction-less existence.
Well, it must be difficult
Being so gorgeous.

Well, it must be difficult
Claiming to be
The kings and queens
But it's all, but it's all, but it's all, but it's all of nothing

This shall pass.
Mega-lo-mania.
This shall pass.
Mega-lo-mania.

Congratulations on mutilation
For a life
For a life
Life, life, life, life, life, life

I’m gonna hope for you,
I’m gonna pray for you
Amongst the reckless and the black
Salvation lies within.
I’m gonna hope for you,
I’m gonna pray for you
Amongst the reckless and the black
My time is your's my friend.

We all find ourselves so horribly weak
(Oh God,) here's an offering
Here’s an offering,
Offering, offering

RIOTS STAR!!!! Gomi gomi gouhou wa? Gomigomi gomigomigee.

Densen de waai, kuroukuri, concord roshi
Ee rafaa! Minna rafaa! raamen kure rafaa! Mizu, Why?
Kuroumin, koukou n toki no wasshoi! Fashion sense no Balance o today!
"Gyaran" tte no wa honki kai? Waiwai Turuukokkut bai
Kokusoubiko... kowai! Dame demo hoshii! Kabi soubiko... kowai!
Kimi no Manshon nugi nugi maguwai! Manmankou s***e waki ke!
Wa.wa.wa.wa.Shagii ma ni, dairi mawarima~su!

KA~RENDA~~
YuKyaffe Rakke Masshi keMakke Mekkera Yappa Rappa
Yappashi Kappe dappe kudappe sekkeda geppe Rappa
Yappashi Rappe katou Tsugyappe Kappe reppe Rappa
Yappashi Kappe dappe? Kubahha desse gepperraai

Ningen da waai, kuroushi, koukou no roshi.
Ieya! Pinku no Birabira monde kure yo Manshon nengen ugoitara hyakumanen
Juuden waai, To roshi, Concord reeshon
Ui chashanbanbanbangyan rendan baka Bowakawooi
Manko no Birabira rock way! Shaban shinda walk way!
Chanman rokuro way kuuei way wei baishuumeirobunku way!
Shinshuku no kuro Baichekyu wai & Manko no midare Kukkuwai Manko no
Reberuu gugou
Shaayabaa Bekyuu way!

KYAAASHUUU uwaaaaaaaaiihh.

Uuh RIOTS!
Uooh chie no wai 9 waa meitee... eigo raamen dabe naa?
Uooh shinobu WAI kyuu waa kyuu waa. Eigo REAWEEEEI.
WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH

KA~RENDA~~ô
Yukyaffe rakke MasshiI kemakke mekkera Yappa Rappa
Yappashi Kappe dappe kudappe sekkeda geppe Rappa
Yappashi Rappe katou Tsugyappe Kappe reppe Rappa
Yappashi Kappe dappe? Kubahha desse gepperraai

1-2-3-4-3-2-1-JAAA... WAAAAHH

Gomi gomi gouhou wa? gomigomi gomigomigee.

We can why? Rin'a manko Mankan wa, miru yo!

Miru baka no kao o bangumarii
F*** on the melon soda! Iro no green!
We can why? sweety! back on the break!
Otosu konsonshare reii no WAIOURAAAAAI!

Uuh RIOTS!
Uooh chie no wai 9 waa meitee... eigo raamen dabe naa?
Uooh shinobu wai kyuu waa kyuu waa. Eigo REAWEEEEI.
WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
Yuu RAISU!! Umai!! Amai!! Yabaaaaaaaaaai!! Rasshaa!?

i jus wanna....

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 16:43:37 -0000

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6NgUWiU89M&feature=related
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EMO name ^^

My insanely stupid emo name is break my paranoia because you're so controversial.
Take The "If Your Name Was An Emo Song... Generator Thingy" today!
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My penis's new name is Ronald the Strangely Proportioned Weapon of Mass Destruction.
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choice, questions and answers....

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Tue, 08 Jan 2008 18:15:26 -0000

...yes I wanna be happy again....

...but if it means I have to break someone elses heart then.....

.............I dunno.............

....is it her choice.....or my choice?....

....maybe it's even our choice?....

....*sigh* I dunno what to do anymore.....

....should I close my heart and let no one enter it?....

....or should I open it and give her the chance to destroy what I've barely restored?....

....damn, life has answers, but far to many questions....

....one question has many answers........

....the only thing you have to do....

...is to choose which one that will lead you to what you want the most.....

lol

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Fri, 23 Nov 2007 17:30:58 -0000

http://www.hiphoptomtar.se/video/hiphoptomtar_v2.swf"
THROW LIKE A NINJA!!! XD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9vZFftIXbc#
if I were gay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p_tWeFFPKGs
2 all u legend of zelda fans!!
(LOL) (L)egend (O)f (L)ink! XD P.S. the 2nd and 1st ones r not so very important
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fb7ehZ5LjCY&feature=related

I'm sorry....For being useless....

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Fri, 23 Nov 2007 10:28:11 -0000

Now I'm really sick and sad because,

I thought u'd be happy if I'd came back.....

But you just walked away with tears in your eyes....

I didn't leave you bcause I wanted to....

But because I didn't want you to see me suffer...

..But now,

Now you don't want me anymore.....

I have no reason to live anymore...

Or am I just mistaking as always?...

Do u still want to be with me,

But I'm just to blind to see,

To dumb to even notice...

..Or just to sad to even know how you're feeling....

*sigh*

I'm useless....

I'll always be useless....

-=Broken=- (This blog was made 4 jodie and peoples close 2 me who wants 2 kill themselves...)

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 20:38:46 -0000

why are you gonna kill yourself!!?? you have so much too live for,

I know life is hard, but yet, why!?

there's peoples who cares about you,

peoples who loves you,

who's suffering the most!?? huh!??

there's still people that has suffered more then you,

but still they stand tall, they beleive in themself,

they force themselves too continue,

even if the have nothing too fight for (sumtimes)

..if u leave us now, you're suffering will just spread...

..you're not jus holding 1 life in your hand....

..your holding in my life too...

...don't break that life....it needs you....

please don't kill yourself......please?.....I'm begging you...

..I can't take more pain then I already have...

..I don't have so many friends....but still I'm being thrown backwards..

..into the cold, into the darkness...

..my heart and soul is broken..

..and the more pain, loneliness and sadness it takes...

..it'll soon break.....

If...

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Mon, 12 Nov 2007 21:59:52 -0000

If u'd run away,

I'd run after u....

If u cried,

I'd cry with u...

If you were alone,

I'd always be there with u...

If u smiled,

I'd smile back...

If u died,

I'd kill myself....

To all u girls who thinks that all guys r weird, stupid and jus desame...

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 00:21:45 -0000

..u know, u're the weird one..

..u really don't know how a boy really r, do u?...

..what do u think a *boy* is?...

..sumthin that always scream and does nothing good?...

..well then it seems like you've only met one...

..I bet u haven't even tried talk 2 one...

..or maybe the boys where u r jus does stuff like that so u think every guy in the world is like that...well...

..u really must be one of those persons that sees sumthin and then thinks everything that's called desame, is desame....

oh c'mon, u can't really think that every boy is desame?...

..me 4 example, I jus stand behind persons, listening 2 what they're saying, sitting alone, doing nuthin, jus stays quiet...

..I could tell u more, but....

..maybe I'm jus 2 lazy, 2 nervous, 2 scared or jus sumthin else....

..but I can tell u this..

..if I was like the others...

..I wouldn't be sitting here right now......

Faint

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 05:29:06 -0000

finally, someone that can explain how I am and feel..

do people care about me?...

xX♥Riku♥Xx xX♥Undertaker♥Xx xX♥Tsukiyomi♥Xx — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 22:41:01 -0000

do people even care about me? I mean,

people doesn't seem to care about me,

I'm the one listening to what they're saying,

watching them doing stuff...

but when I try to say something...

no one reacts,

like my voice was just like a small breeze...

this happens to me everytime....

and when someone hears,

he'll just say *what the hell are you talking about?* or

*you're so dumb*

and then I jus shut up....

the rest of the day I don't speak with anyone....

I'm afraid of saying something wrong,

or something that'll just make me look more stupid....

I'm afraid 2 talk...

I'm afraid of showing people who I really am....

I wish I could...

but they won't listen.....

the thing I'm most afraid of....

is helping someone....

I care about everyone around me,

even if I don't know them I care..

but some of them always make me look like a fool

when I try 2 help them.....