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Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 00:20:54 -0000

it explains itself... all i want for christmas is you!!

I Love You: ?????? (LL)

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you...

Love And Insanity (Love Is Insanity)

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 22:50:40 -0000

-->> another old poem... im not sure if i posted this already but if not, here it is! nothing much to explain... just the title.. well, the love i have for this girl is driving me insane. and ive been so hooked onto her that her absence is making me really upset, and everyone knows that leads to "insanity".. well dont worry, im not really crazy, im just hypothetically talking, to make this more dramatic.. xD well hope u enjoy! =)

Dedicated To: Hannah Loren Allera

I took advantage of the moments I thought I would always have
And here I am, hopelessly wishing them back
I'm still here crying for the times that made us laugh
And there you are laughing at the times that made me sad

I have to remind myself to take another breath
But I forget I truly have nothing left
You basically took everything I own
Even the memory of the numbers I used to dial on the phone

I simply can't escape this hell
Your face is just everywhere I look
Is this a dream? I'm too crazy to tell
There's so many unanswered questions, its like I'm in a mystery book

Only now, the answer is strangely obvious
It's your haunting shadow possessing me
Avoiding awareness and making me oblivious
To everyone and everything I see

I know it was my fault for falling
But do I really deserve to think the walls are talking?
Who is it that's really in control?
The heart that thinks or the mind that sinks?

This all seems like a brainwashing video game
You never win even when you're already insane
Everything outside is so empty and numb
Except for the soul stuck in the body's mindless fun

A Poem Of Broken Answers

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 22:42:24 -0000

-->> well this is a pretty old poem.. i never realized i made this until i read it just today.... yea so another poem i guess.. i cant really explain it. it speaks for itself.... well i hope you enjoy!! =)

Dedicated To: Hannah Loren Allera

Some things are better left unsaid
And I guess you're one of them too
I would love to watch the world go down with me
and watch you follow through

I'm trying so hard to change my life
But all it's doing is just staying the same
You always come randomly into my mind
And until now, I don't know who's to blame

Unfinished songs and poems keep running through my head
Old memories and photographs are all that I have left
Sometimes I'm aware I have no feeling, and I have wonder if I'm dead
I keep trying to think of an answer, but my questions always multiply by ten

Those pictures don't mean a thing anymore
But still, I can't stand to know they're gone
Remembrances of me and the whore
Left behind, except me, the only one

If you came back, would I leave you?
When you return, would I still need you?
Until you come here, will I be okay?
Would I do to you what you did yesterday?

When I'm here, will you still be over there?
When you're here, will I even try to care?
Will your revenge finally take it's toll on me,
that when you're gone, you'd wish I didn't leave?

Nickelback - Never Gonna Be Alone

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 18:42:25 -0000

I love you so much... (L) bottom line..
itll never end, and will never change no matter what!

Dedicated To: Hannah A.
Sierra R.

(Verse 1)
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

(Chorus)
Your never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
Your never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

(Verse 2)
And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cuz forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...

(Chorus)
Your never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

(Verse 3)
Ooooh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
May be our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...

(Verse 4)
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

(Chorus)
Your never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day,
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day.

Superhuman - Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 23:10:47 -0000

-->> well now, this song fits perfectly for me right now...

i love you with all of my heart, that's it, bottom line, and that can never change....

dedicated to: Sierra Rutherford...
with all of my heart and love...

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment u came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see though the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
And I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see how love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
Going going, I'm gone away in love

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human

Super human

I Wonder (So Much Drama, So Many Lies; So Much Fakes and Many More Reasons To Die)

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 01:55:22 -0000

-->> yeaa.. another poem! so, heres a little story line: just today, i heard my classmates bashing my crush.. so in short, they were gossiping.. so they just kept saying different things, bad things, random facts, blah blah.. then they got into the "hate" facts.. idk for what motive, whether it be to ruin her or just because thats how they see her, i really dont know, and i never could. ohh and she also nearly stopped me from being emo, a bit of an inspiration so that will be helpful to know when reading more into my poem........ so basically, at the very end, im asking what would happen to "us" (the grade 7 and 8 classes in my school) or me if she never came to this cheap little city. yep yep, that kinda thing. then before that, im talking about how shes so perfect, everyone is a fan of her and theres the "paparazzi" and the anti-fans so theyre trying to ruin her, blah blah that kinda teenage drama. blah blah.. then later on, its talking about me being sorry for my "sins" since she is the "royal queen" of some sort or something and i doubted her life and i believe in the rumours, and im confessing to Him cuz i almost, so closely decided to fall with the lies, so yea, blah blah.. and its talking about what happened to me today, basically.. what i heard, what i should believe, and which way i should go.. believe the lies or believe in my own dreams i know could possibly be not true at all... yeaaa so enjoy! dont worry, its pretty short.. so yea lol

Dedicated To: Sierra Rutherford

Sometimes I wonder what's behind those blue eyes
What's mixed in the truth behind all of those lies
And I wonder what's the reason for all my crying nights
and how I can't get you off my mind even with a fair fight

They say you're just another dirty, lying bitch
So classy and plastic, an animal and a witch
I'd never believe them, until I see it for myself
If there's a devil hiding in my dreams, in the one and in this angel

I always deny you're the reason for my suffering
Looking for another reason, an excuse, or just something
If I really wanted it, and if I extremely needed to
I'd keep lying to myself until it hurts, just for you

It seemed like you were so perfect, to everyone and not just me
But now it's so hard to understand, what they say and what they want to see
I can't tell if I should go the beating way, or to go the social path
To leave it and kill myself, or risk everything and do the math

I know nothing can ever possibly be of us
Don't get me wrong, I think of it more than once
Do I lead myself towards the night, or do I commit the moral crime?
But what can I possibly do if I'm running out of precious time?

I'm not at all surprised that everyone is after your existence
Whether to ruin your life, or gain happiness from your presence
I'm just another one of those crazy die-hard fans
Part of your dedicated fan base and oblivious hardcore clans

No one expects you to do the right thing,
You're so amazing, no one can ever judge you for anything
It's easy for you to lie, and more easier for us to die
But that's only if we lose you to hypocrites or another useless guy

It would be a sin for us to doubt your angelic ways
and to not defend you from the whores and their horrifying, plastic days
All your crazed up fans will be in for the torture session
While me, the only little person would be in for a long confession

Dear God, I am sorry for all of my sins
I doubted your angel, your gift to us with wings
I know she is the royal one, and the higher one than us
But there's many more things to confess, if I must

I don't know who to believe, where to go, or what to know
I don't know what's going on, and I can't see through the blinding snow
You told me to trust your ways, but I can't seem to do that everyday
When everyone that I ever know of is against the one I've loved

Who am I to believe? I don't know, and I really can't tell
Do I believe the plastic whores, and risk living eternity in hell?
Or do I believe in my dreams, that could never at once come true?
Do I stop and listen to the ones who don't even know you?

Sometimes I wonder what's behind your fixed mask
I only had time to think, and never had the courage to ask
But I'll never have the pride to even try and say "hi"
Not even a simple smile could get me out of my hide

I wonder what it would be like, if you never came to this life
If things had always stayed the same, and the cutting continued with the knife
I wonder what would happen to us, would the world just keep on turning?
Or would it be a massive destruction and would we continue burning?

I Wonder (So Much Drama, So Many Lies; So Much Fakes and Many More Reasons To Die)

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 01:54:43 -0000

-->> yeaa.. another poem! so, heres a little story line: just today, i heard my classmates bashing my crush.. so in short, they were gossiping.. so they just kept saying different things, bad things, random facts, blah blah.. then they got into the "hate" facts.. idk for what motive, whether it be to ruin her or just because thats how they see her, i really dont know, and i never could. ohh and she also nearly stopped me from being emo, a bit of an inspiration so that will be helpful to know when reading more into my poem........ so basically, at the very end, im asking what would happen to "us" (the grade 7 and 8 classes in my school) or me if she never came to this cheap little city. yep yep, that kinda thing. then before that, im talking about how shes so perfect, everyone is a fan of her and theres the "paparazzi" and the anti-fans so theyre trying to ruin her, blah blah that kinda teenage drama. blah blah.. and its talking about what happened to me today, basically.. what i heard, what i should believe, and which way i should go.. believe the lies or believe in my own dreams i know could possibly be not true at all... yeaaa so enjoy! dont worry, its pretty short.. so yea lol

Dedicated To: Sierra Rutherford

Sometimes I wonder what's behind those blue eyes
What's mixed in the truth behind all of those lies
And I wonder what's the reason for all my crying nights
But I cannot get you off my mind even with a fair fight

They say you're just another dirty, lying bitch
So classy and plastic, an animal and a witch
I'd never believe them, until I see it for myself
If there's a devil hiding in my dreams, in the one and in this angel

I always deny you're the reason for my suffering
Looking for another reason, an excuse, or just something
If I really wanted it, and if I extremely need to
I'd keep lying to myself until it hurts, just for you

It seemed like you were so perfect, to everyone and not just me
But now it's so hard to understand, what they say and what they want to see
I can't tell if I should go the beating way, or to go the social path
To leave it and kill myself, or risk everything and do the math

I know nothing can ever possibly be of us
Don't get me wrong, I think of it more than once
Do I lead myself towards the night, or do I commit the moral crime?
But what can I possibly do if I'm running out of precious time?

I'm not at all surprised that everyone is after your existence
Whether to ruin your life, or gain happiness from your presence
I'm just another one of those crazy die-hard fans
Part of your dedicated fan base and oblivious hardcore clans

No one expects you to do the right thing,
You're so amazing, no one can ever judge you for anything
It's easy for you to lie, and more easier for us to die
But that's only if we lose you to hypocrites or another useless guy

It would be a sin for us to doubt your angelic ways
and to not defend you from the whores and their horrifying, plastic days
All your crazed up fans will be in for the torture session
While me, the only little person would be in for a long confession

Who am I to believe? I don't know, and I really can't tell
Do I believe the plastic whores, and risk living eternity in hell?
Or do I believe in my dreams, that could never at once come true?
Do I stop and listen to the ones who don't even know you?

Sometimes I wonder what's behind your fixed mask
I only had time to think, and never had the courage to ask
But I'll never have the pride to even try and say "hi"
Not even a simple smile could get me out of my hide

I wonder what it would be like, if you never came to this life
If things had always stayed the same, and the cutting continued with the knife
I wonder what would happen to us, would the world just keep on turning?
Or would it be a massive destruction and would we continue burning?

Skillet - Say Goodbye

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 00:12:40 -0000

uumm.. yea ok so u were never really mine to lose.. blah blah... but this song really touches my heart; i can just TOTALLY relate to it so much.... well.. heres my new song!!

Dedicated To: Hannah Loren Allera

Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You've got your life
I got mine
But you're all I cared about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now
I'm left alone somehow
Growing up and getting older
I don't want to believe it's over

[Chorus:]
Don't say goodbye
Cause I don't wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it's not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye

Do you remember
In December
How we swore we'd never change
Even though you're leaving
That our feelings
Would always stay the same
I wish we could be laughing
Instead I'm standing here asking
Do we have to end this now
Can we make it last somehow
We both know what we've gotta say, not today
Cause I don't wanna leave this way

[Bridge:]
And if it's over
It hurts but I'm giving you my word
I hope that you're always
Happy like we were
Happy like we were

[Outro:]
Yesterday we were laughing (if you're gonna say goodbye)
Today I'm left here asking (if you're gonna say goodbye)
And although we knew this time would come for me and you
Don't say anything tonight
If you're gonna say goodbye

Living In The Past, Dying For The Future

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Sun, 09 Nov 2008 05:13:14 -0000

-->> just another emotional poem i made out of boredom... had nothing to do so i decided to do this.. lol prob one of my best poems so far, in my opinion.. at least, i worked fairly hard on this poem.. the title says it all, and later on in the poem itll explain things... it just speaks for itself, its another sad poem, talks about what i would do for my loves, how much i miss them, blah blah blah, id do everything for you, but what would u do for me?? that kinda thing... i was making a big effort to make this work, and very worth reading.. so here it is, my poem for my love... i guess it makes 2 of them =P

Dedicated To: Sierra Rutherford, Hannah Loren Allera

I would do anything for you
You know that it's simply true
There's nothing I wouldn't do
That would benefit me, and you too

If you were dying, I would kiss your pain away
And take your dignity back
I would suffer with you every single day
Even until then, my love will never slack

Even when they're both fairly equal
I still prefer angels more than "models"
Angels can never live to lie,
But when you're a plastic, it's easy to tell

You were nothing I ever dreamed of
You're something I simply don't deserve
Yet I see you everyday of my life
And I still think of you all of my time

People say opposites attract
And I finally guess it's something so very true
Love and inspirations can easily distract
Especially when I'm thinking of you

Do I deserve to even think of your existence?
Am I worthy to breathe in your smile?
Is it okay if I ignore this resistance?
And ask if you just stay for a while?

If you were crying, I would kill the one to blame
Punish them and put them to shame
Even when the day comes, and I'm the one accused
I'd still take the whip and never refuse

You'll never see a day where you cried for your life
Never again will you see another eternal night
You'll see the end of your worst enemies and fears
But that's only if you come with me

Only for you, I'll take care of everything
From your heart, to your halo and your wings
I'll be your guiding light and your shelter in the storm
And be your one and only home away from home

I'd do everything and anything for your sake
Put all I ever have and had at stake
If it means leaving and never coming back
If it makes you happy, that's where I'll be at

Including the things that are unknown
I would do all the things that ever existed
If it's for you and it means being alone
I would go back all the time and relive it

But what would you do for me?
Is there something out there your eyes could see?
When will you see we're meant to be?
Tomorrow or will I have to wait an eternity?

I would live so many lives for something real
More than 10 locks and a seal
Something stronger between you and I
Where you couldn't hurt even if you tried

But that's just the world I dream of
The one that revolves around fantasy
Just another fairy tale, or an emotional story
The ending is never what you wanted, it's simply reality

The pain from the possibility you're not coming back is agonizing
Knowing you were never mine to lose is traumatizing
I'm holding on, but I'm barely alive
It's always just tear after tear, night after night

I'm hardly breathing without you there
Living solemnly in the past
And I'm wondering why I still care
Knowing you're what hit me last

So close to fading away
Dying for the possibilities of tomorrow
It's just all the same everyday
You're rarely around and your absence feeds my sorrow

You were everything I ever asked for
Probably even more
But I'm asking just one single question
Why can't I be yours?

What She Does To Me

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 02:04:03 -0000

She makes me stop breathing when I just think of her, and I remember I'm only living because of her, so that helps remind me to breathe again. She makes my heart stop beating when I don't see her around, and I'm so close to death when I live for another second knowing that. She's a blond beauty. Gorgeous girl, so very angelic. So unbelievably perfect that she's just amazingly so hard to resist. Even just seeing her face in my head just makes me go crazy. Knowing that she can never be mine makes me insane. I see her face every night in my head, before I go to sleep. I pray for her, and I pray for another day where I won't have to live without her there. I pray that I can just see her more than often, and on occasions when I feel God's in a good mood, I pray for her just to talk to me. Even for just one quick minute. It doesn't have to be a long conversation, it can just be a quick glance at me or that warm smile she always has on her. She makes my blood run to my face, making me lose consciousness in my head, being so embarrassed that I still think of her, and wish she could be with me, even though I already know it's wrong, will never happen, and can only hurt me the most. Sometimes when I see her, I feel like just grabbing her and hugging her, never letting go of her even if my very own breath depended on it.

She somehow makes me feel in love all over again, again and again, everyday, every second, and every minute of my life with her still on my mind. Then of course, there are the smaller details of her that get her closer to beyond perfection, the ones that make me fall more and more than necessary. How can such a perfect and divine figure come from the same line as me? She makes my heart want to run out of my system, just to see it still beating out of my body, just for her to see it still beating for her, even when my presence is gone.

She makes me believe in angels, believe in everything thought impossible. She makes me believe I can fly, if you had the one you love most by your side. She makes me believe in miracles, that angels like her can really be in the presence of unworthy humans like me. She makes me believe in happiness, and that everything anyone wants is all in one person. She makes me believe in fairy tales and that normal people can really have happy endings with angels like her.

She makes me want to go to extremes, die for her, lie for her, and protect her. Lose everything just for her. She makes me want to do anything and everything, just for the reassurance that she will always be mine, and that she will always be mine to hold and protect. But she makes me want to die. Die so I can meet her again in the most perfect spot known to man in the after life. In Heaven, for the most perfect people, for the most perfect beings just like her, where the most perfect things can happen to anyone who wanted it and prayed every suffering night for it. She makes me want to be a better person, and she gives me the inspiration for it. So when my time on earth is really done, and when I'm down to the final judgment, there will be no need for second looks, and I'll be where she wants me to be, with her, together, in the place where happiness and love begin and never end.

How can she be so perfect at everything she does that it keeps her forever on my mind? How can I be so worthy to even have her presence in my sight? But why is it that I love her so much, that I'd do anything, but she can never be mine?

Her name is Sierra Rutherford, and I'm falling more in love with her every second. I'm falling deeper in love with every breath, even by just thinking of her. I'm amazed at what she does to me, and what she simply makes me feel. It's amazing how much I can protect her, love her, and give her everything she needs. It's strange how I don't even know her yet, and how it feels like love at first sight. But it's a great feeling to know I have someone to love. Someone who can't depend on me, but someone who can never hurt me. Someone like her who I can say I love, someone like her who I can be very proud of.

Minutes Turn To Hours, Hours Turn To Days, Days Turn To Years & I'm Still Without You Here

Jυηιε M. Gαвяιεℓℓε — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 00:37:15 -0000

-->> heres another poem i made.. this is prob not one of the best but its better than the ones i made out of boredom.. so yea as you read along, youll see all the stanzas are based on special occasions and that someone you love not being there so yea, i thought it would add a nice little sad touch to it.. xD so this poem is basically talking about thinking of someone way too much, crying over them, them not being there with you even tho u know it can never be... then at the end, it really talks for itself and says: "and until now, if still you dont accept my love for you, i guess its just another year in my life wasted".. so yea, weve all prob felt like that at least once.. where you fall for someone and u think about them way too much and think theyre the one so you waste all your time on them to find out that they dont want to have anything to do with you or dont know that you really exist... so basically, thats what its all about... and after all this, when its all over and when im finally over you, i guess i only figured out i wasted one year in my life (or however long) crying over some minor issue that i thought would be major forever.. so, what i guess the poem is trying to say.. "SEIZE THE DAY OR DIE REGRETTING THE TIME YOU LOST" (avenged sevenfold line i live by) first few stanzas, states: you treat your years like useless hours, you dont care if you never can have them back or not.. but you never lived like me, you never cried over someone, wanting to die for them.. you live your own life like a flower, everyone stares at you but you're hard to understand.. youre pretty on the outside, but we dont really know if youre still new on the inside.. w/e! second stanza, im blaming you for ruining my life.. even if it was my fault for falling for you, you still had to go and hurt me... even if you dont really know that ur hurting me and even if you dont know i really love you.. very weird situation, i know... this is how i feel, whatever!! hope you enjoy my poem =P

ohh, and since i sometimes do this and since i kinda thought that it would be cute to write a line from a song relating to this poem... i did it.. so heres a line i took out from I Can Wait Forever by Simple Plan

"Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me..."

btw, i can NOT wait forever, xD
oh and for the record.. thats how i feel about you
so you better feel special and be honored by that
cuz it fucking HURTS!!! =/

lmfao well ok anyway, heres the poem for real xD

Dedicated To: Sierra Rutherford, Hannah A.

You treat your years like useless hours
But you never lived the way I had
You treat your life like precious little flowers,
Easy to stare at but hard to understand

You always see the bigger picture of things
The things that are so obvious and clear
You live without knowing that to get something,
You must risk losing more than e tear

You think it's so easy to let go
And ignore people who you don't really know
And judge them on other people's lies
So you had to go and fully break my life

Another school day is passing through
Trying to study, but I'm only thinking of you
I can't believe things are only beginning
And already, I'm far from winning

Halloween is creeping up fast
People in their costumes and masks
But as for me, there's nothing to hide with
You took my dignity and ran with it

Through the centuries, they've said "happy birthday"
But what if your one love is away?
How can you get away with just thinking of them
When your hope and memories are slowly sinking with them?

So I took my presents and tried to smile
Knowing that I'd have to do that for another while
Pretending hurts so much, I can't take another mile
But I still have to act oblivious just like a little child

I blew the candles and asked for my life
I wished that my angel could come by
I was hoping that you could be mine
But I know that would never come alive

Christmas strolled by without a care
As I still hopelessly waited by the tree
January came without you there
And I guess that's what will happen to me

My first year anniversary without you being here
And there's no need celebrating on New Year's
It's just another year to add on to my line
And another resolution turned into a lie

I promised myself to be the better person
And to forget the one I never had
But sometimes it's hard because I'm not perfect
But I could be if I had you back

Absence makes the heart grow fonder,
And the only thing you left for me were chains
So I took your gift and wrapped it in my remains
Thinking it could make me somehow stronger

Another Easter day slowly coming
It feels like I just died on the cross
Something heavy is on me while I'm running
Maybe it could be the sign that I'm at a loss

Finally it's summer once more
Everyone's going out in their shorts
Partying and beaches are in plan
And until now, a memory of you is still in my hand

I can never look at this ring again
Not even when I see you, but until then
If you never try to put this back on
I guess another year of mine has just gone