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the touch

♥ mari ♥ — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 11:35:43 -0000

ever wonder
how one moment, spawns eternal?
electrify
with that, my mind began to wander

indulge myself
in whims of thoughts and fantasies
serenity
myself, floating, field of daisies

ecstatic highs
from just a single touch
the same moment
over and over, before my eyes

a running blade
right through my left shoulder, it cuts
done on purpose?
a smile. of course! no if's or but's

my heart, i hear
wild beats, reborn?
no doubt or fear
has my penance ended?

like water, sand
the sensation, it rippled through
body and mind
my imagination or true?

ever wonder
how one touch, could spawn eternal
could evolve to
wild illusions of grandeur?

tiger lily

♥ mari ♥ — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 14:11:51 -0000

we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
we're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go (and never let go)
i'll never let go (i'll never let go)

as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawal of you
for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from

and i, i don't want to speak these words.
cause i, i don't want to make things any worse.
and i, i don't want to speak these words.
cause i, i don't want to make things any worse

why does tonight have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts
we'll skip the goodbyes
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i

and i, i don't want to speak these words.
cause i, i don't want to make things any worse. (any worse)
and i, i don't want to speak these words
cause i, i don't want to make things
and i, i don't want to make things any worse

under the stars

♥ mari ♥ — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 09:46:16 -0000

tonight i will die
together with the memories inside
i am beginning to loose touch
my memory would lapse
and i wanted to keep everything intact

tonight i will spread my hand
up in the air like reaching out
and feel our skin collide
transferring thoughts so full of emotion
that will never even subside

tonight i will lie down
peacefully, eternally on traces of your bed
trying to make out the way you slept
on covers, on sheets with pillows
while tears rolled down and wept

i will write all expressions
with language only you can understand
on how it feels while we are reaching out
hazy eyes, blurred vision, transfixed
how everything felt so right

i thought i cannot stay
but everyday makes me pull back
what good is there in an unconditional love;
the other can't hear you pleading,
while saying 'he's all that you have'

tonight, still i will wait
no matter how long my wait has been
she'll wait for you
i will wait for you
and another will wait for me on the other end

long summer days

♥ mari ♥ — Fri, 30 Nov 2007 06:54:25 -0000

How you loved the way the sun peaked at us
from between the leaves of the fire tree
as you lay snug in the crook of my arms.
Those days have long passed
And I am left lying alone beneath the fire tree,
The sun no longer teasing my closed eyelids
As I dream of long summer days.

I tried to hold on to every single memory of you,
But like fine sand they slip between my fingers,
Until all that's left are few specks
Leaving a gritty feel on my palms.
And just like dreams of long summer days,
Memories of you seem to echo like old love tunes,
Tunes we hum but seem to never remember the words.

Was our time together just like long summer days?
Of endless days and nights that seem to go on and on
But also seem forgotten as the next day or night arrives?
Just like a lazy hot wind blowing over blades of grass,
With no real purpose but to ruffle the stillness?
Or like rushing beach water running towards shore,
Kissing the sand and rushing away too suddenly,
And not a hint's left the waves even came?

Long summer days seem to be always here...
In the morning when I wake,
And a promise of another long summer day tomorrow
In my dreams when I sleep.
Are you dreaming of long summer days too?
Or have you packed those dreams away
With unwanted souvenir shirts and unused suntan?

own world

♥ mari ♥ — Wed, 28 Nov 2007 18:03:49 -0000

i have memorized every detail of you
that even if i'd be blind this instant
i can still paint you clearly, vividly
with colors strikingly beautiful
making the image look lively
the only difference would be your sparkling eyes
that could not be captured even with artful strokes
masterfully created

your scent is everywhere
that nausea engulfs me
i can instantly connect you to any essence
with every intake of air that i make
i have tried taking too much, not giving it off
for i wanted to take everything good within me
and make it stay inside

each whisper can tickle my ear
your laughter is defeaning and infecting
every pitch a lullaby
that no matter what word you say,
will easily be remembered by my brain
turning the conversation over and over
until i hear you say everything out again

hand resting in your palm
head resting on your shoulder
security is the best word
euphoria being next to you
and contentment for the whole day

memorized the way you walk
retracing each of your steps
forged your signature over mine
your surname next to my own
the way you would sleep soundlessly
or sit next to me watching tv
embracing while doing household chores
and running after just to hold me longer

i can still say a thousand things
of how and why i remember such
how we met, we first held hands
and cried at the same time
even if my memory will run out
those are the only things that i'll remember

not the time how we said goodbye