Kaila Reginaldo

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Kaila Reginaldo — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 15:59:39 -0000

I won't deny it... I'm still affected...
I'm the one who left him but it's the right thing to do.
Besides, he gave me a reason to do that...

I know he's not affected...
God, within 2 months after we broke up
he already had 2 girls in his life.

yeah... I knew it! I have my ways..
and like what i've said...
It's easy for me to know what he's doing.!

It would be fine with me if he showed me that
he shed even a single tear.
who'll believe he cared for me?
When all he cared for is about that Damn dota!

Imagine... we're in a middle of a very big problem
but he still find a fuckin' time to play DOTA!
That's what I can't forget...

He even told me not to think about the problem.
God, how can I do that...?
If it's between him and my family..!

One more thing, if having new girls in life was his way
of forgetting the past.. It's not a good reason...
I just have some questions for him...
Yea.. he won't be able to read it but.. I really wanna ask..
1. When will you stop hurting other people?
2. How many lives do you want to ruin?
3. How many girls do you want to have a broken heart?
4. When will you change?

He keeps on fooling girls and
he keeps on fooling himself..
He think he's the only guy in the world...
And he think he's worth-dying for....

Yeah... many girls want him... many girls are dying
just to be with him....
but that's because he has the "sweetest tongue" ever..!
He keeps on telling lies..
He keeps on saying sweet things in front of girls
He keeps on making promises he can't keep.!
What girls don't know is that, he has another one behind their back.

I gave my all... (*hey boy, you know what I'm saying, liar!)
but.. ahh.... hell..!
for him, my all wasn't enough!
He didn't even realize everything i've done for him...
I almost ruin my life for him...

He might say he's the one being left behind,
he's the one being hurt and
act like he felt a deep pain..

He thought I would believe every stories he told me..
About his ex, about his life... about everything..
No! Coz' what he's telling me is what we call
"TO-GOOD-TO-BE-TRUE!"
He only tell stories that would make him rise.

Many people might not understand what I'm saying..
I can't tell the whole reason behind all these..
all I can say is that...
I'm really hurt... and I'm really affected!
I'm still stranded...

I know I've made a lot of mistakes too but what he did
is unforgiving...
And million apologies will never bring everything back!

*Who am I talking to? You know who you are...

Reminiscin'....

Kaila Reginaldo — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 17:09:43 -0000

Hmm...
I've just thought of something that happened to me before.
I can't stop thinking 'bout it. I don't know why.

I still remember everything.
Our sweet and bad memories memories together.

I still remember the moment when I was crying in front of him.
I also remember when I already got here in quezon.
It's already vacation, after we went to boracay I knew that something was wrong.
That's it... They figured it out. My family knew about our communication.
They even knew all the details in our conversation.
I was really shocked. I cried for a week. I didn't eat.
I can't even stand on my own.
I found out that his life is back to normal.
It's like,... nothing happened.
It hurts a lot...

My family and I had an agrrement..
I would continue studying but never to communicate with him anymore...
Even a single word through chat..
If they found it out I would stop studying.

days passed... i've moved on a bit.
Then my friend told me that he already have a new girl in his life.
Written on his shoutout is his name and the girls name "forever" "nueve"
Then my friend told me that he read the comments of the girl and him..
The girl was his ex girlfriend. wow...
When my friend told me what's written on the comment...
I was reallly mad..!

God, it's only a month after we broke up..
I doesn't even see him shed even just a single tear for me.
While I almost died crying inside my room.

While my friend was telling me those facts.
I really want him to suffer the pain that I'm feeling.
More than twice of what I'm feeling is still not enough.
You think I'm MEAN...
You don't know the whole story..

He said about his 7 days...
I want him to fulfill that promise...

I wanna know why he made me feel he loved me...
When it's not true.
Why did he made me feel like I was very special..
When I'm not!
Why did he have to make me believe he's fighting..
And make me hold on to him..
When I have nothing to hold on to...
He never left me.. But He's also not with me.!
Get what I mean?
What does he really want from me..?
I wanna know the answers to my questions.!

I told im I won't regret anything..
But now that I know...
I regret everything!

I fought for him but i left him..
Yes, I left him...
But there are certain reasons why I didn't continue fighting.

1. Most of the times, I feel that he doesn't really care for me.
Maybe, he never really cared for me.
2. Many people are against our relationship.
3. Those Rumors with evidences.
4. He doesn't really love me.. I can feel it. I just didn't mind.

I know what's happening around me and how people thinks.
I just didn't mind. It's not being blind.
I just can't accept it that's why I keep on fooling myself..
Yes.. I'm such a fool! And I hate myself for being a fool.!
I can't stop blaming myself for everything..
Why did I let him run circles around me?
and Why did he run circles around me..?
Why..? I really wanna know why?

Rihanna - Umbrella ft. Jay-Z

Kaila Reginaldo — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 16:47:14 -0000

Please Don't Stop the Music by Rihanna

Kaila Reginaldo — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 16:46:01 -0000

Unfaithful by Rihanna

Kaila Reginaldo — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 16:29:49 -0000

Updates to playlist: Popoular songs

Kaila Reginaldo — Tue, 27 May 2008 05:19:18 -0000

Updates to playlist: john

Kaila Reginaldo — Thu, 22 May 2008 06:31:59 -0000

Updates to playlist: Step up2 soundtrack

Kaila Reginaldo — Fri, 09 May 2008 04:09:59 -0000

Low by Alvin and the Chipmunks

Kaila Reginaldo — Fri, 02 May 2008 12:18:57 -0000

Beautiful Girls.mp3 by Alvin And The Chipmunks

Kaila Reginaldo — Fri, 02 May 2008 12:15:21 -0000